anna unleashed!

Multiple Misfortunes

2007-04-03T07:23:00.000-07:00

Ryan's Grad..

Ang saya ko kasi isa sa mga kapatid ko ay grumaduate na.. And I'm really blessed to have a brother like him.. kasi responsible siya and alam niya ang mga responsibilidad niya bilang mag-aaral.. ahehe.. (tagalog na tagalog talaga)

Mama, Ryan and Papa

Ryan and Me..

Kami ulit with Papa Jesus..

I will not forgive and forget!

Grabe,, isang bangungot ang pagbakasyon ko sa Laguna.. Hindi ko talaga makakalimutan yung ginawa sa akin ng kapatid ko (panganay-Roman).. Hindi ko na ikwekwento in details, basta, ang bottom line ay sobrang hindi ko siya mapapatawad sa ginawa niya sa akin.. kapatid ko pa naman siya.. tapos... waaah... change topic...

Community Immersion (last December)

Wala lang.. kahit ang tagal na nito.. share ko lang yung mga pics.. ahehe..

Giving of Certificates after the Program Implementation

With my classmates and Mrs. Osea

During the Question and answer portion (Deal or No Deal Concept)
Boom Tarat Tarat Contestant.. ahehe.. *video*

***

ayun.. isang araw ng disappointment nanaman.. ahehe.. pero ok lang.. kuntento naman ako kasi kahapon, enrollment ko.. BSN 2D na ako sa summer class.. woohoo.. tapos ngayon, nag-general cleaning ako sa kwarto ko.. ang sarap tuloy matulog ngayon.. ahehe.. yun lang.. sharing.. sana.. maging masaya na ako.. hehe..

My Daily Struggles

2007-03-25T07:49:00.000-07:00

Nursing

Sa totoo lang, habang tumatagal.. lalong nagiging toxic ang buhay ko sa CEU.. Maliban sa presidente ako ng klase namin.. halos lahat na ata ng trabaho eh ako na ang gumagawa.. Siyempre, doon lang naman ako magaling eh.. I mean, sa lahat ng pwede kong ipagyabang, magaling lang ako sa mga class participations, leadership training skills, pero pag dating sa academics, doon ako palaging sumasablay.. kasi hindi talaga ako mahilig mag-aral.. sadyang masipag lang ako..

Nag-eenjoy naman ako sa nursing profession ko ngayon, kaso.. 50% ay doubtful parin ako kasi ayoko na ipagpatuloy pa to.. and hirap kasi pag ayaw mong gawin ang isang bagay na pinilit kang gawin.. at wala ka nang magawa kasi andiyan kana.. para bang "let's cross the bridge when we get there".. ang hirap naman ata nun..

pero sa kabila ng lahat.. candidate parin ako for internship sa BSN.. masusukatan na ako ng clinical uniform.. ibig sabihin, assured na na pasado kami ng 2nd year.. ang saya ko talaga nung nalaman ko yun.. feeling ko tuloy, worthwhile lahat ng naging trabaho ko bilang nursing student, president at class representative...

SM North (New COF)

Naglaro lang ako ng exceed zero sa sm north, and dami ko na kaagad nakilala doon (isa na sun si Choco float).. May clan dun na kung tawagin ay "Forever Zero".. Napasali naman ako doon.. masaya kaso kung sino-sino yung kinakamayan ko na hindi ko naman kilala.. pero ok narin kasi lumalawak yung pang-unawa ko in terms of friendship, experience and attitude.. Kung baga, napag-aaralan ko yung iba't-ibang klase ng buhay ng tao.. Masaya naman ako sa company nila pero sa ngayon hindi ko pa sila masyadong kilala,,.

FOREVER ZERO.. Mga cosplayers din sila..

Nagkaroon nga ng tournament sa sm north.. di ko expected na ako yung mananalo sa isang category nila.. 5 categories kasi yun eh, syempre yung last 2 hindi ko na sinalihan kasi pang halimaw na yun.. hindi naman sa pagyayabang, pero, nung mga oras na yun, ako lang yung babaeng medyo magaling.. ahehe.. (wala sanang magseryoso sa sinabi ko ha.. natutuwa lang ako kasi pangarap ko to eh..) ayun.. masaya...

Micheal's Birthday at Loreland

last march 20 ata yun nung bumalik kami sa Loreland Antipolo.. (pasaway na bata) ayun... Masaya..

Ako, si Erika at Glece.. Mga sadakong gusto din magswimming sa balon.. hehe..

Ako at si Glece.. Pacute lang ako diyan.. ahehe

Exceeders.. after lang namin ikutin ang buong resort nagpicture-picture na. ahehe.. (Jem, joey, Jhomz, kel, ako, glece, erika at nimrod)

WOF Sta.lu

Sobrang miss ko na mga kaibigan ko sa sta.lu.. kasi lagi na ako nasa sm north.. pero kahit ganun pa man, hindi ko parin naman sila kinakalimutan.. Siyempre, dahil sa kanila, natuto akong maglaro ng exceed.. hehe.. Marami din akong natutunan na mga bagay bagay na tanging sila lang ang makaka-explain sakin.. syempre, hindi ko makakalimutan yun.. Nalulungkot lang ako kasi si Eka.. ang cold na niya sakin.. siya kasi yung bestfriend ko sa sta.lu.. feeling ko talaga may problema siya regarding sa akin.. kaso hindi naman niya ako kinakausap.. haaii.. miss ko na sila...

Cris, ako at si Erika (at si Lester sa likod namin) ahehe.. sa exceed..

Girl Power Part 1

Girl Power Part 2

Ako at si Bez.. Sa Loreland.. Night Swimming..woohoo!!

Nimrod, Bez, Ako, Harris, Cris at Agie.. Sa Sta.lu

Ako at si Bez, kasama si Ella Guevarra ng Starstruck kids..

******

*sigh* napapagod na talaga ako sa buhay ko.. kahit kuntento naman ako sa lahat... tama yung sinabi ni melai sa shout-out niya - "being happy does not mean everything's perfect!"..

2007-02-18T22:22:00.000-08:00

My calendar is full of time-pressured-activities and now I can't help myself but CRY... I really want to give up now but it seems that signs is encouraging me not to. I have no choice but to continue this biggest resposibility of my life.. Being a registered nurse. *argh*

I'm at our computer laboratory here in ISC 502 and obviously, I'm not doing my seatwork (simply because I'm already done transcribing the consultation report). Since i haven't updated my blog for almost jurassic years, I decided to sneak a little to visit my little nook. *haha*

After my computer subject is our religion class wherein I will not attend to.. Ever since we started our religion class, I never learned something from her. She doesn't make any sense regarding her subject and since I still have many things to do tomorrow, I'd rather finish my homeworks and reviews. I still have to finish our community output for our oral revalida on wednesday and I am aiming for a grade of line of one. Also, I have to make a speech about my family's province for my english class and most probably I have to prepare for my impromptu. I also have a long quiz in physics tomorrow, first part is about force and energy while the second part is about the topics that we had discussed last prelim and finals. And before I forgot, I have a work (as a president) to compute the class grades in our microbiology class.

*isn't it life's wonderful?!*

Belated Happy Valentine's Day and Happy Chinese New Year!!

Taciturn... Emotionless... Cold

2007-01-02T21:20:00.000-08:00

First and foremost, Merry Christmas and a happy new year!

Ang daming nangyari sa buhay ko this past few days.. Sobrang lahat ng emotions ko lumabas at lahat ay nagbago. Naging malamig ang pasko para sa akin. Isa na doon, ang huling pagsama ko sa kabarkada ko sa sta.lu (exceeders/pumpideros) noong Dec.16,2006. Yun ang araw ng exchange gift namin at nagpunta kami ng marikina at sumakay ng octupus. Sobrang memorable ang araw na yun para sa akin kahit na hindi kami nagkikibuan ni Frank. Sobrang nag-enjoy naman ako kahit papano, it serves as sayonara narin para sa bestfriend kong si momota, kasi babalik na siya ng Japan kasi nagkasakit yun papa niya. After ng araw na yun, nag-lay-low ako sa exceed. hindi na ako nagpupunta masyado ng sta.lu at ang isa pang masaklap, hindi narin nila ako sinasama sa group message.

Sumunod ay nung nagpasko ako sa kapitbahay, kina ate Izzie. She's my PYM-mate (Parish youth Ministry), ka-org ko siya sa church namin. After nung choir service namin nung Dec.24,2006, nagpunta ako sa kanila at doon nag noche buena. Masaya pero nakakalungkot kasi ibang pamilya yung kasama ko. samantalang yung family ko, nasa Laguna, nagcecelebrate ng christmas with my brothers.

Pangatlo, Happy new year?? 11:45 pm ng Dec.31,2006 eh natulog lang ako. Sobrang tinulugan ko lang ang pagpasok ng 2007. at hindi ko alam kung bakit.

Pang-apat.. May nanliligaw sa akin.. kaya lang.. nung dec.25,2006, sinabi ko sa kanya na ayoko nang mag-commit ulit. Na pagod pa ako at hindi ko pa kayang magmahal ulit. Sabi ko sa kanya, nasa recovery stage parin ako hanggang ngayon, at dahil doon, ayoko magsimula ulit. Ang drama nga masyado eh, pero tanggap naman niya. Classmate ko siya ngayon 2nd year 2nd sem. Ewan ko ba, nawalan na ako ng tiwala sa mga lalaki. kahit sa sarili ko...

Pang-lima.. Gumawa na naman ako ng panibagong goals for this year.. Sobrang seryoso akong baguhin ang lahat.. Una, Ang maging masmatapang. Gusto ko, maipagtatangol ko ang sarili ko when the time comes that almost everyone is stepping on me. Tapos, gusto ko na maging honest person most especially kina mommy at daddy. Gusto ko narin maging more studious pa compared last year, gusto kong grumaduate na may maipagmamalaki sa magulang ko at sa sarili ko. and lastly, ang maging faithful sa lahat ng taong nagmamahal at nagbibigay ng importansiya sa akin..

Lastly, I would like to thank the following people who reallt taught me how to become a better person:

Mary Ann Ticzon, Ronald Ticzon, Roman Angelo Ticzon, Manuel Ryan Ticzon, Rafael Ticzon, Marielyn Dulay, Adelfo Dulay, Mariel Dulay, Mila Castaneto, Manuel Uy Jr., Juliet Medina, Izzie Ledres, Karmela Silerio, Janus Mesina, Harris Ambia, Erika Momota, Mary Mangosing, Lou Salvador, Donnuelle Balagtas, Doreen Balagtas, Parish Youth Ministry, All Weird Till Z-end, Ahse 1s, 1t, 2i, 2Q, Exceeders and most especially.. Frank Nerza.

~Without those following persons, life for me will be more difficult.

"Sayang"

2006-11-25T21:48:00.000-08:00

Ang tagal bago ako nakapag-blog ulit. Sobrang naging busy talaga ako sa studies, sa church at sa exceed. Anyway, it feels good to be back again. Kahit na I'm not sure kung kailan ako ulit makakapag-blog since this December is one of my hectic months in the calendar. Hospital Duty, Community Immersion, STS Tour and Health Center Exposure. Marami kaming exposure ngayon so ibig sabihin, marami ring requirements na kailangan ipasa. Plus the fact na I'm a graduating student sa AHSE program or my internship, as far as I know, after this summer, papasok na ako for the BSN (FYI, Bachelor of Science in Nursing). And I can't wait for that moment to come.

So bakit ba naging "sayang" and topic ko for today?.. Well, sa tagal kong hindi nag-blog, hindi ko na maikwento sa dami ng nangyari sa ilang buwan lang na nakalipas. Might as well, yung pinaka-latest nalang ang ishe-share ko sa inyo.

Una, sa barkada. Halos kalahati ng barkada ay galit sa akin. Sobrang hindi ko alam kung bakit. What I mean is, alam ko kung bakit pero hindi ko alam kung bakit ganoon nalang sila kagalit sa akin., gets? Alam ko kung ano yung mga nagawa ko sa kanila, pero, if their problem is about the "gm" (FYI, group message), wala akong magagawa doon kasi ako yun, ganun talaga ako magsalita at ganun talaga ako react. Ang hindi ko lang matanggap, is kung bakit sila ganun, tinuring ko sila tunay kong kaibigan, sila patong hindi nakaka intindi sa akin. I respected them from who they are and I didn't get mad because they are who they are, pero it's really unfair kasi ako, sagad hanggang buto ako magsalita,and alam nila yun. Pero hindi nila ako kilala! Kahit sabihin pa natin na kilala namin ang isa't-isa, may mga bagay parin sila na hindi nila kilala sa akin. Sana naman, wag nila akong husgahan ng ganun ganun nalang. Pero hindi ko sila masisisi. Kasi ganun talaga sila mag-isip, hindi ko lang din matangap kasi sila itong matatanda, sila patong hindi makaunawa. Ngayon, kahit magmukha akong tanga sa harap nila kakahingi ng tawad, ok lang, kasi admited ko naman kung ano yung ginawa kong mali. Pero pag hindi na talaga tama, kung baga, abuso na., ewan ko nalang. Sa akin, sayang na sayang yung mga ipinundar kong respeto at tiwala ko sa kanila. Kasi they serves as models for me, pero hindi pala. Sayang. Sa bagay, hindi naman ako kawalan sa kanila eh, so do i. Sayang, masaya pa naman ako pag kasama ko sila kasi sila lang nakakapawi ng pagod at problema ko sa buhay.

Pangalawa, waaaahh... hindi ako naka-attend ng re-election ng Nursing student Council... nakakainis, i really want to run for the position of a Treasurer, nakaka-asar. Yung section kasi namin wala pang officers, kaya wala tuloy umatend sa meeting. Haii.. Sayang.. Di bale, sa 3rd year, sasama ako sa NSC officers. Masaya naman ako kahit papano sa position ko ngayon eh, hehe.. (ang yabang..) President kasi ako ulit sa section namin kaya masaya.. hehe..

***Ayan, kaya "sayang" ang title ng entry ko ngayon.. hehe.. nasa huli talaga pagsisisi.. Pero, dahil naman diyan, marami nanaman akong lesson na natutunan. I guess, this will be a lesson for me. Now, I'm really looking forward na magkabati-bati na kami this Christmas. Sobrang I really did visit the chapel and attended the sunday mass just to ask God if He may grant my wishes for christmas. sobrang yun lang hinihiling ko wala nang iba. Hopefuly, God will answer my prayer, I know He will, in the right manner, right time and in the right place.

2006-09-24T05:25:00.000-07:00

waaaaaahhhhh..... sino naman yan!!!! ahehehehe...... *ganda ko noh?* joke.. ahehehe

2006-09-24T05:24:00.000-07:00

Hindi naman ako masyadong masaya ano?? ahehe... Sa Robinsons po iyan.. after the play... with my classmates!

2006-09-24T05:23:00.000-07:00

Wahaha... Me, kriz, edward and hazel at the rob..

2006-09-24T05:22:00.000-07:00

Wow.. blog before my immersion in Batangas.. hehe.. I opened up our yahoo group ahse-2i.. and I saw this pictures uploaded by one of my classmates!! woohoo.. This was taken during our last watch of play at St.Paul University for our English class.. After the play... we went to Robinsons Place to play billiards..

Chill Happy Sunday

2006-09-17T11:05:00.000-07:00

Our class went to Greenbelt 1 for us to watch The Boor And The Proposal. It was a 2 in 1 play at held at The Repertory Philippines. The Boor was about a creditor hounds a young widow, but becomes so impressed when she agrees to fight a duel with him, that he proposes marriage while The proposal is a story that tells of the efforts of a nervous and excitable young man who starts to propose to an attractive young woman, and who instead gets into a tremendous quarrel over a boundery line.

The play was not good unlike the first one that we watched at St. Paul University which is Chinoi. It was so boring and I was so sleepy while we're watching the play. It was like my lymph nodes are trying to convince me that after sacrificing my P250.00 for that stupid play (sorry for the term), at least I will have a benefit from it for my English class.

After the play, of course, gimik is in the mind already and we first thought of going to Katipunan for dinner. But before that, along the way, we saw Miriam Quiambao in a flower shop! I was totally out of my mind asking for her picture and I'm not really that desperate because she's a human too, but the fact that I idolized her before and until now because of her sincerity and humbleness and even though she's morena, she's still beautiful inside and out.. And back to the story.. We decided to eat at Pizza Hut and we're like terrible people who's asking for alms! (exage) hehe.. I mean, we're not suited for the place, but still, we can pay it off.. So we ate and of course, kwentuhan to the max. The company was me, Kriz, Krizzia, Bevs, Alvin, Don, Kevin, William, Melong, Leann, Jozelles, and Doms. It was a night-out fun! i even got a party hat and ask them to write in it as a remembrance..

We wrote at the party hat:

Hindi ko to makakalimutan!!
-Pepay

Ang cute ng experience for this day.. hehehe!! kakaiba!!
-Jozelle

Ang saya-saya ngayon grabe! sobra dame nangyari.. as in..
-Kriz

Okay lang,,, Mejo masaya naman.. =p
-Melong

Grabe saya.. Astig lang.. cool..
-Bebs

Grabe! Ang galing ng loveteam! nakakakilig! sana mapanuod ko yung Aladdin! haha! mas nakakakilig yon for sure!! Haha..
-Donibee

Masaya naman.. ang dame kasi namin. .si Jozelle ang takaw.. hehehe
-Krizzia a.k.a. Lumnay

Extra lang poh!! Toinks..
-Alvin

Ang ganda ng "repertory" sa 2nd floor, Greenbelt 1, Paseo de Roxas St. Makati City.. Babalik-balikan ko yon.. Panoorin niyo rin.. (ang Plastic!!)
-William

Thank you sa pagsabit niyo sakin! hehe..
-LeeAn

So there you have it.. After the dinner, we went to Bubble Gang to chill-out.. There, they ordered alcoholic beverages and of course the pulutan. I didn't ordered anything because that time I was so full and I spent almost half of my allowance upto thursday,. so I just went there really to hang out with my classmates. I stayed only for 30 minutes and got home early (I was such a good girl that time because I really told my parents the truth about my sunday gimmick after the play) *unbelievable isn't it?!*.. hehe..

Love, Love, Love..

wooho0... nice topic.. well, I was like Dr. Love not so long ago.. I was helping out 3 of my friends at Sta.lucia.. Michael, Erika and Nimrod.. It is very confidential so I won't detail it anymore (even though many of us know the real story behind the scenes) Well, It just came out and I realized that I can help others as long as I want and as long as I'm concern but... me, myself and I can't handle situations on my own! I keep telling my friends every suggestions and advices because everything is based in my own experience and I don't want those bad things that happened to me will happen to them. *sigh*

In my own love life... Still the same... confused on whom will i choose and whom will I let go.. scared in all the consequences that will happen after I decide..

"Love changed me; the way I think, the way I act, the way I decide.. Sometimes, I even go against my principles and beliefs in life.. Loving doesn't mean I'll be happy always; sometimes, all it provides me is pain and misery.. Yet, I was blinded by strong emotions that I failed to see reality.. Sometimes, letting go is the answer; it hurts like hell, but I will soon realize that it's better to suffer the pain and see the person I love to be happy... =(

2006-09-17T08:09:00.000-07:00

Me with my mom... (o0ops.!!..) joke.. *ambitious* That's Miriam Quiambao.. I saved up my guts to ask her for a picture.. I'm so overwhelmed because I idolized her because of her morena beauty and being sincere and humble..

2006-09-17T08:04:00.000-07:00

During our dinner at Katipunan Pizza Hut with the rest of the cast; me, don, doms, krizia, kriz, melong, leann, cadaver, joz, william, bevs and alvin...

2006-09-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

... Kriz, me and bevs...at Pizza Hut..

2006-09-17T07:53:00.000-07:00

The Bubble Gang.. Melong, Leann, Don, William, Kriz, Doms, Krizia, Bevs, Cadaver, Jozelle"s", Alvin and me!..

2006-09-17T07:48:00.000-07:00

Me again with Kevin George a.k.a. Cadaver... taken while ordering at Bubble Gang..

2006-09-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

That's me with Krizzia at Pizza Hut Katipunan.. (guess who's hand is that..)

2006-09-17T07:44:00.000-07:00

Two of the bad habits that I really don't dare to try. Drinking and smoking is a big no-no for me.. (But it doesn't mean that my friends are bad influence to me, they're just having fun) -taken at Buble Gang Katipunan.

sigh

2006-09-10T08:57:00.000-07:00

Wala lang.. May naalala lang ako. Naglalaro kasi ako ng exceed, tapos saktong kakatapos lang niya sumayaw tapos turn ko na, nung pagkatapos kong sumayaw, tumapat ako sa electric fan para magpatuyo ng pawis tapos bigla niya akong nilapitan para alukin ng tubig.. Wala lang.. Nung mga oras kasing iyon, nasa state of shock ako kasi in the first place, nagulat ako at kinausap niya ako in personal, knowing na hindi kami nagkikibuan. Ang weird lang kasi, nung time na yun, saktong pagabot niya ng tubig sa bote ng c2 at pagsabi niya sa akin na "ubusin mo na to" parang anime na biglang flash back sa isip ko yung mga alaalang hanggang ngayon hindi ko parin magawang iwanan sa malayong lugar. Ang cute lang kasi, para akong yung may "pop-up balloon" sa ulo, yung sa comics.. hehe.. naalala ko lang bigla.. kasi galing kaming Sm North at Laguna ngayon, ayun.. while I was in the car, I was reminiscing those happy moments with him. Ang masaklap pa doon, pinipilit kong isipin si Frank pero, wala talaga.. parang nababad-trip lang ako. Ewan ko ba.. kahit naman papano, minahal ko rin yung lalaking yun, pero wala talaga akong naramdaman na "voltage".. *huh??* ahehe.. basta.. pero sabi nga ni Lou, pareho kaming may kasalanan kaya kami nagkakaganito. Lalo na ako, ako ang may pinakamalaking pagkakamali sa aming dalawa. The fact na niloloko ko yung sarili ko ay isang mahirap na pagsubok na para sa akin. pero hindi dahil sa tinapos ko na ay tumatakas ako sa mga pagkakamali ko, pero, ito lang ang magandang paraan dahil una sa lahat, kung talagang kami, kami! It's a matter of choice naman eh, I chose to be without him because I think he'll be more concentrated with his work and with his life without me. In fact, he has a life before I came.

Haii.. feeling ko wala nang problema, pero feeling ko hindi ako matahimik. Parang may gusto akong mangyari na hindi ko naman magawang mangyari dahil hindi ko naman pwedeng diktahan ang mga dapat mangyari sa akin. Grabe.. bat kasi ganun, pag nagmahal, nakakabobo.. pero ok lang, "during" the love ka lang naman nagiging bobo eh, pero "after" that, marami ka namang natutunan.. yun nga lang.. expect the unexpected when the moment comes the 2nd time around. (labo) ahehe.. anyway.. Sobrang gusto kong magka-world war ngayon.. ewan ko kung bakit.. gusto kong makasapi ang Pilipinas sa Soviet Union.. Tapos isa tayo sa mga magaling makipagdigma.. Nakikipagsapalaran para maibalik ang dating halaga ng piso... Para mabigyang katarungan ang paghihirap ng bansa.. Haii.. iba talaga pag impossible ka magisip.. One attitude ng isang martyr... Ang alam na ngang mali, pinipilit parin na tama. Alam na ngang niloloko, nagbubulagbulagan pa. Alam na ngang malungkot, pinamumukha mo pa yung sarili mo na masaya.. Ang labo na noh? Kasi halo-halo nasa isip ko ngayon.. kung anong lumabas sa isip ko, yun yung tina-type ko sa ever loving pc ko.. hehe.. Basta.. ang bottom line is.. mahal ko parin siya.. kahit may nasaktan akong iba at kahit may mahal siyang iba. *sabi ko na nga ba eh.. tototohanin ko parin yung pinangako ko sa kanya* pero bahala na ang kapalaran..

Maliban sa problema ko sa puso.. Medyo nakabawi naman ako ng saya pagdating sa studies. Nakabawi talaga ako sa mga grades ko.. And I'm really happy about it. Malaki ang itinaas ko this midterms compared nung prelims.. Ito, haggard nanaman ako this week kasi, sa 17 may play kaming papanoorin sa G4 para sa english.. Nervous system sa Anatomy.. Return Demo ng Handwashing, bedmaking(occupied/unoccupied), body mechanics, Range of Motion sa Health Care Lab namin.. tapos play sa Health Ethics at Oral recitation sa mandarin.. well.. kaya ko to.. medyo mas naging inspired kasi ako this midterms at ewan ko kung bakit.. dapat nga depressed ako dahil sa nangyayari sa amin ni Frank pero di ko alam bakit opposite ang nararamdaman ko... pero feeling ko alam ko kung bakit.. aking nalang yun hehe... Haii.. sana makapag-2nd sem pa ako.. at kung maaari.. maging alumni ng CEU.. Haii... Good luck sa akin..

Sige, antok na ako.. siya nga pala.. Help naman.. Tagal ko na hinahanap to eh, yung lyrics ng Complacence by Tomiko Van english version.. wala lang.. if someone can help me, it is highly appreciated.. hehe.. Thanks.

Singlehood...

2006-09-09T10:16:00.000-07:00

I'm single again.. don't ask

I texted him just a while ago..

Si Anna to. Just want to let you know that it's really too late. I can't handle things anymore. The more you act as if you're a stranger, the more I loose my hope in bringing back the love that we used to have. I guess we're really good in being just friends. If you just know how hurt I was. But it's ok, it's a good preach you taught me. I've been waiting for you for so long, and still, you didn't made a move. I realized that the "effort issue" is not a big deal for you because the real you is not an "effort-giving " type of person but a man with a "kung ayaw mo, huwag mo" syndrome.And I can't do anything about it. It's really hard to do this but i have to. It seems that I'm the only one who's doing all the effort. I guess I did my part. Let me say this for the last time.. I LOVE YOU.. Hope you'll be more successful with your work and I know you'll be more happy if you're not in my hands. and besides, according to Alvin, you lose almost your whole love for me. And wala naman akong magawa to bring it back. I did the best I can pero hindi moko pinansin, hindi mo pinahalagahan yung mga ginawa ko. I know you'll understand that our relationship won't really work. Thank you for everything and I hope you'll find the right girl for you, girl with the right age, right attitude, understanding, beauty & brains. Take good care of yourself and I'll take good care of our memories. Be Safe."

In a week of thinking.. I found out that I no longer know how to handle relationships. It seems that Janus left me his trauma.. I really got affected with it. But I came to realized that I also did my part as Frank's girlfriend. I even left the one I truely love just for him and I even lied to my parents all the time and yet, worst comes.

When I'm in the process of loving a person, I really do take things too seriously. I'm loving them with my heart & soul. But with Frank's case, I honestly can't teach my heart what to do and most especially on what to feel. I know that all of this is my fault. And i'm guilty about it. It took several situations that only damaged my relationship as friends to others. But still, to defend myself.. Man do mistakes. As well as they do not mean it. But the point is, I stepped the wrong path thinking it was right.

I also realized that, or maybe, I found out that, I find it more happier being single. Not because I can do all that I want, but the feeling of having the freedom in all aspects of life. All I can say is that, I'm contented with my life right now.. I'll just focus more on my studies and gain more friends. I'm sure I can live without a guy.. Haii.. what a self-realization.. =(

Nursing Disaster!!!!

2006-09-02T20:20:00.000-07:00

After months of not posting an entry, and here I am.. Lots of free time to blog again. (only upto monday) That's because, Midterms is over and at long last, I got my mind peaceful at a moment.
I was definitely a busy person. Even though I got my time to do other activities other than school, I describe myself as a haggard human being. If you come to think of it, I wake up 5:00 in the morning, I'm busy with my school for almost 10 hours a day and 2 hours for my recreation activities, and when I go home, I still have to study for the "everyday" quizes and as a president, manage the whole class and I have bigger responsibilities with my classmates and with the Nursing council. How's that? I always get over-fatigue. I thank God i can still manage everything and let things fall into its right place.
I think this will be a long entry because I missed a lot of things that happened to me not so long ago. And I'm in the mood to express my thoughts into writing.

LeaderShip Training Seminar
08/18-19/06

All Nursing Student Council officers, Year Level Officers and Section Presidents were required to attend the Leadership Training Seminar at Caliraya Re-creation Center Lumban Laguna for 3 days. It was actually my first time, since I'm the AHSE-2I President, I was complied to attend the said seminar. It was a great oppurtunity for me necause I learned a lot of things about Being a Passionate Leader, How to enhance English Communication and How to prepare proposals. I was inspired by the speakers and because of that, I realized a lot of things that I didn't even thought before.

Mr. Armando Santillana is our first speaker of the day. We were asked to wear casual or comfortable clothes. (As if we're a laidack potato couch) He taught us everything about Team Building. After the Lecture, we went out the Caliraya Auditorium to do the Physical Activities. First, we were grouped upto 25 persons and we are all wrapped with a chinese garter, then we went to the basketball court to build a pyramid with the use of straws and pins. After that, we have to build the word LEAD with the use of our own body, then we went to the obstacle course (just like the movie, Entrapment) after that we played the chase the dragon's tail. Afetr that, my most awaited activity, The Mud Slide.
I was actually excited to learn new things with those kinds of activities which I can't see the point what leadership will have to do with it. but as the activity goes on, I came on to realize what Mr. Santillana said during the Lecture that "In a group, there is no one left behind". When I come to think of it, we were grouped and all of us did the macro-cooperation level, we were united and self-confidently do the activities as one. And that's the essence of being a leader wherein you can't be a good leader if your not a good follower.

One of the speakers was Mr. Crispin Urbanozo. He taught us three of his topics:

*Pinoy Ako,Pinoy Tayo
*Battle Cry: Youth Empowerment
*Superheroes: Principles and Values

I was interested that time and I really make it assured that I listened very well.

Pinoy ako, Pinoy Tayo is simply about Nationalism. We were taught about things that even we are the Future Nurses of the Philippines, we must not forget that we are Filipinos inside and out.

Youth Empowerment or The Battle Cry - We watched the Penshoppe Commercial which is about the Battle Cry of the Youth. I was inspired on this because the commercial striked me a lot wherein Youth was empowered to:
*Choose the right thoughts - Freedom to choose
*Set your mind on good things - Personal Growth
*Focus on the positive - Positivism
*Have Confidence - Self-confidence

Superheroes, the concept of being a superhero is the principle and values of being a leader. Just what Spiderman said, "Great power comes with great responsibilities".

After Mr. Urbanozo discussed all of the topics I said a while ago, He described the Filipinos, The youth and most especially us, future nurses as SALT which means Student Advancement Through Leadership Training, which actually means that even though we taste salty, still, salts gives the finest and natural taste of the food that we eat.

Before all of that, we had a group activity wherein we will conduct a certain commercial pertaining one product or company. The assigned product for our group is the famous Coca-Cola Company. We planned to do the Nikki Gil Song Commercial, Christmas Spirit, Ito and beat sabay sabay, Office Conflicts and Party People. The concept was a taboo when our Coke Fairy (which is Ate Trista) pass by every scene, the taboo will move from conflict to peaceful situation.
I portrayed one role in the Party People Scenario. Wherein, we are in a disco club and we're in a "dull" moment, and when coke fairy passed us by, I grabed the coca-cola in can, the the audience see that I drunk and I gulped then after having the coke moment, I grooved to dance with my members then I did the backbend position in the center (which caused me so much backpains).
Anyway, we we're happy about the outcome because we never expected that we will perfectly performed the commercial so well in a short span of time to practice evereything.

The last day of the LTS. and here, I thought a lot of things:
"I realized that A true and real leader comes with his/her 3 companion, Discipline, Respect & Cooperation. Without those three, you'll not be effective as what you think, but everything that you want to happen to your group will be totally fall out the opposite.
In reality, Hardship makes a man a better person. Things won't be very easy that's why we tend to be more hardworking to succeed and achieve a certain goal. Maybe, we Filipinos lacks knowledge about RESPONSIBILITIES. And yet, we still forget the true essence of being a leader, a model, a listener. Following foot steps will never be easy. To ease the pain, we have to do those things with our heart and soul. Leadership not only tells us to lead and lead and lead, but to uplift the people of the world! Or enlighten the spirits in evey Filipino Youth. In my own experience, I might be a busy person, but, because of Discipline, I learned to define everything from needs and wants. Because of Respect, I learned that If you want things happen this way unto you, then better yet do it first for yourself and to other for you to be respected too. and last, because of Cooperation, I learned that you will not be an effective leader if you are not doing your role as a leader to members."

Community Immersion
08/21-22/06
Based on my LFD (Learning Feedback Diary)

The day before the immersion was the Leadership Training Seminar which I attended starting from aug.18-20. Sunday, when we got home, I was very tired and drowsy. Knowing the fact that I will be immersed on the following day.
Monday, It was my 1st day of community immersion at Barangay Bugaan West Laurel Batangas. I woke up at 4:00 in the morning and checked my things. After the rituals, I went to Don's house and went to school together. After that, we are also accompanied by Micah Abalos of Section-O and we are all starting to get excited for the immersion.

At Jollibee Mendiola, I gathered all my classmates and checked their attendance. We rented a jeep going to Park and Ride. There, I told our treasurer to collect P310.00 for the payment of the transportation. Auditor and secretary also helped.

After the 2nd attendance, I noticed that all of my class mates are being too histerical because of thinking too much about the forms and other stuff. I was also worried because one of my groupmates is late and the other one is dropped. Thank God she arrived before the bus left.

While in the bus, I was the one who lead the prayer, at first it was totally impressive but in the end, all turns out to be comedy plus the fact that my slimy thing on my nose snooze out!!! it was totally embarassing!

I was so excited but a little bit nervouse on what will happen next. During the LTS, Ate Trista (3rd year) was one of my room mates in Laguna, She told me some tips to remember. She told me that their 1st community immersion was also their 1st time not to sleep the whole morning in the middle of the night (I mean "madaling-araw") and I was not that really shocked because I already expected it. But all the things Ate Trista said to me was absorbed.. It was really helpful and now, I am really nervous if I'm going to make it to my 3rd year. As we said in the LTS- "I'm the BACK BONE of College of Nursing"

So we arrived at Sto. Tomas Market for the so-called "shopping". Others photocopied their forms, some bought food and toiletries and I.... I just went out to windowshop! haha.. Since I'm an addict when it comes to Hello Kitty, there was this store that looks like they smuggle Hello Kitty stuffs from Japan. I asked the prices of the doormat, bags, etc. and it was all out of my budget! and I really can't afford to buy it. After that, I also looked at the DVDs which are 8 in 1 and I bought a crystal casing for my cellphone.

Anyways, after the marketing, we straight ahead went to Laurel Batangas, The CIs (clinical instructors) went on meeting with the BHWs (Barangay Health Workers) and assigned different families to different students. I was assigned at Ate Fely's residence with Hazzel as my partner.

Thank God that Ate Fely is a very kind mother and she's not really that "snob" kind of person. She sees to it that she takes good care of her children and put them on the top of her list. The first thing me and Hazzel did was to share our food provision and I cooked corndbeef for lunch. I baby-sit Ate Fely's youngest son, Errol, while she cleans the house and while Hazzel is washing the dishes. After that, we went on story telling with Ate Fely about our different aspects of life. I listened to her and I observed. I realized a lot of things which I can't handle all by myslef. Because there are things that I never imagined that they will live without any other things like refrigerator, etc. After That, we changed our clothes and started to interview Ate Fely about her profile. Then we proceed to the Barangay Hall for the orientation of the following forms for requirements.

After an hour of discussion, we went back again to our foster parents for the interview. I interviewed Ate Fely all through out the day about: Multifactorial Phenomenon & Persons Gordon. The night at 6:00, we have our dinner and helped Ate Fely for the household chores. And again, continuation of our interview upto 8:00 pm. After that, we rewrite all the forms and slept at 9:00pm. We decided to alarm my cellphone at 12:00am. After I woke up at 12, I started finishing my requirements. Because of my drowsiness, I took a bath at aroung 1:00 am to overcome my sleepiness and started finishing my requirements again. 5:00 am, I decided to sleep for about an hour and I already prepare myself for the Healthy Lifestyle Before we go exercise, I rewrite my Attachment B as fast as I could.

At the Barangay Hall, we went on an exercise for the Healthy Lifestyle and after the exercise, we took our post test for the community immersion and I was confident with my answers only in MFP but in Bag Technique, I think I'm going to fail on that. After the quiz, we went back to our foster parents, but before that, we first hanged-out at our groupmate's house with Nanay Anastacia, she gave and offered us a drink of a Fresh Buko juice. And she even invited us for lunch (but unfortunately, we're running out of time). When we came back to our house, I took a bath and packed my things. Farewell to Ate fely and her kids! After that, we waited for almost 30 minutes for the rain to stop, and while waiting, I performed a Physical assesment to Ate Fely. After that, we waited for the tricycle driver to fetch us. When the driver came back, we went to Konsehal Maligaya for the assembly.

Inside the bus, I collected all my groupmate's requirements and LFDs and also their TRCs and for the attendance.

*** I learned a lot of things with this kind of activity. I know that this is my first step to my journey to in the world of Nursing. This isn't a joke that's why I'm so serious about this. Even though I got low grades, I still do my best to enjoy and at the same time gain more knowledge."

Haggard to the fullest!

That week, It felt like I got my brain damaged.. I did a lot of activities and it really makes my week a hell of being a busy person. I experienced the pain of agony, sleeping for almost 3 hours every night and passing of requirements with my extra effort in it. I felt like it was a Nursing disaster! hehe.. But if I come to think of it, this is only the start and I really have to deal with it because when I become a 3rd, 4th year, I will do a lot, or more activities than the usual.

Moja..

Problems again with the lovelife.., and still.. breaking-up happened. But we're back again yet I'm still confused.

2006-09-02T20:16:00.000-07:00

During my Physical Assesment with Ate Fely...

2006-09-02T19:54:00.000-07:00

During our Healthy Lifestyle...

2006-09-02T19:53:00.000-07:00

During my interview with Ate Fely...

2006-09-02T19:47:00.000-07:00

That's my Foster parent.. Ate Fely and her youngest son Errol...

2006-09-02T19:46:00.000-07:00

That's the house of Irish and Ikay's Foster parents.. At the back is the house of our foster parents...

2006-09-02T19:44:00.000-07:00

Picture Taking with my groupmates.. Ahse-2i1.. (together with aves, ryan, and penduco)

2006-09-02T19:39:00.000-07:00

Our Clinical Instructors.. Mr. Villegas, Mr. Yaranon, Ms. Acosta and Ms. Ong...

2006-09-02T19:38:00.000-07:00

I'm with Ruby, Cyra and Fairy at konsehal Maligaya...

2006-09-02T19:33:00.000-07:00

Picture taking during the arrival at Konsehal Maligaya with Jonnathan, Ikay and Irish..

Determined

2006-08-12T20:53:00.000-07:00

My first day in health ethics for the midterms was yesterday, and I was so energetic that time because I participated in the recitation so well. One way of aiming a high grade in the class participation) As i told you in my past entry, I got 4, 3.5, 4, 4 class standing in health ethics pre-lim and I was so disappointed and embarassed that time. That's why I'm making up with my midterms and it was all a success.

Another was our quiz, I was so confident with my answers and I got the feeling that I'll pass the quiz. I know I'm being too haughty here but I'm just telling you how determined I am. And the fact that I really got low grades this prelim, I don't like it to happen again. And that's a promise!

After the class, I talked to Ms. Arnaldo to say my thanks to her, because she still passed me even though I got low grades. I was so thankful that time. And also, I thank God for everything most especially for focusing on me this past few days. I love it! I feel like I'm beeing guided by the light!

I believe

At long last, I have my own copy of I believe by David Tao Ze thanks to Krizzia. Ahehehe.. I was planning to burn this to a small cd and give this to Frank.. Just for a simple thought that I always remember him. haha.. I'm being emotional here..

Just hangin' around...

2006-08-09T00:10:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm here at our computer laboratory for my computer class and we don't have anything to do but to copy Module 5,6,7. And since I have my own flash drive, I just copied it and I'm already free to search the net.

Since I don't have anything to say,
Just want to share my schedule for the month of August..

Aug 9 LCPA Meeting (church)
Aug 10 Quiz in Mandarin Chapter3; Assign-Ana-Digestive; Quiz in Ana-Blood
Aug 13 Watch play at The Repartory Philippines
Aug 18-20 Leadership Training Seminar at Caliraya Laguna
Aug 21-22 Community Immersion at Laurel Batangas

Things to STUDY!!

Ana-Physio
~Digestive System
~Blood
~Heart
~Lymphatic System

Computer
~Windows 9X OS
~Windows NT-2000 OS
~Windows XP OS

English
~Hunger in Barok
~Will of the River

Mandarin
~Chapter 3 ; Eating Out

*sigh* I still have to exert more effort to make it up with my grades. Thank God for encouraging me this past few days, I feel like God is focusing on me right now and I thank Him for that. I guess, Time Management is the key to do all those things and I have to learn to haveself-control.

*Non-sense entry!!*

2006-08-08T04:10:00.000-07:00

Our practice was totally worthy!!! I got it 1.0 and 1.25 for the bed bath, oral care, back massage, perineal genital care and shampooing. I am really determined to make it up with my grades and today is the 1st day of my hard work and I thank God for giving me a the courage to move on and for making me feel encouraged again! I hope I can make it this midterms.. We had our practice yesterday at Don's House with Bevs, Ruby, Chelle, Me and Bernadette...

2006-08-08T03:59:00.000-07:00

another photo taken at Don's garage.. Me, Don, bevs, berna, chelle, ruby, aves and achilles.. **We are really working out hard here!! We're aiming for 1.0 in Health Care!!**

2006-08-05T23:35:00.000-07:00

I love this pic!!!! GirL power!!!!

I'm not giving up!

2006-08-05T20:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I was so depressed about my grades in Health Ethics. Since I got in college, I never got a grade of 4 in any subjects. I was totally stacked-up that time.

During our Health Ethics, Dr. Hazel Arnaldo started to call us one by one to show us our class standing and I got surprised when my standing was; 4, 3.5, 4, 4. I was so paralized then. I sitted at the back and for a while, I didn't speak, I didn't listen. When I felt that my lacrimal glands are working, I immediately went out of the classroom and at the window side, I cried like a looser!!

Thinking about this is really a pushed-force of mentality matter. Knowing that yesterday was also our 1st monthsary, I can't face Frank with those grades. I feel so embarassed because I am the president of the class and yet I am one of those who failed, how sarcastic for me to think that I really studied a lot. I even photocopied all reviewers in Health Ethics and still my grades are constant. How could that happened?

Honestly speaking, I know it is my fault. I know it is my obligation to put my subjects on top of my list. But it seems, I can't concentrate this past few days like there is something that bothers me.

I already talked with my mother and I told her not to expect from me. I told her how pressure I was and how diffuclt the subjects are. Nursing is not a joke and I have to focus on it one last time! and I know i'm in the urge of giving this up, but it's not too late, I still have the midterms and the finals.. This will be a one good lesson for me and for me not to fail the next time, I have to consider this as my punishment.

Happy Monthsary Moja!

After my sorrow, God is really kind. Frank and I don't have plans for us to celebrate because 1st: he has his work at 10:00am-7:00pm and I got also got my class. 2nd: I understand that he saves up his salary for his needs and for our future. 3rd: I have financial problems. But because God loves me, Frank's schedule was changed to 6:00am-3:00pm! wooho0.. so we got 3hours to celebrate! even though it is only a short time, I thanked God for He still lend me some time with Frank.

Because of simplicity, I just gave him a HUGE letter and an anenometer toy. (why anenometer? -->just watch Windstruck)

This was his reaction:

"Moja, nandito na ako sa bahay.. Nabasa ko na. Na appreciate ko naman ang ginawa mo!! Moja, salamat.. Sensha kong wala akong naibigay sayo kasi nagmamadali na akong para makita ka kanina. Hayaan mo ikaw lang talaga mahal ko at akin ka lang. Ok.. Sensha na rin kong wala me effort na ginawa siguro dahil din ito sa work.May time na pang-umaga may time na pang-gabi kaya sensha kong di mo ako nakakasama ng matagal.. pero sa totoo lang kapag nasa work ako ikaw lang ang iniisip ko.. ang lakas nga ng tama mo sakin! hehehe.. Love you so much!! Ingat ka lagi.."
9:12:15pm
05-08-2006

I love you Moja.. I'll study hard for my family and for the two of us! That's why I'm not giving this up!!!

The Medical City

2006-08-03T07:14:00.000-07:00

As a requirement in our Health Care subject, me and my group mates were assigned to go to a Tertiary Level of Facilities, (hospitals that are highly technological and sophisticated services offered by medical centers and large hospitals. These are the specialized national hospitals). These hospitals are divided into three; Private, Government & Specialized.

As our private hospital; we chose The Medical City, Government hospital; PGH (Philippine Government Hospital), and for our Specialized hospital; The Lung Center.

We divided our group so that we can accomplish our interview at the right time and for a purpose of not being too disturbing to the hospitals that we are going to visit. So, I assigned myself, together with Beverly, Krizzia, Kriz and Rachelle to go to the Medical City since the mother of Jax (Rachelle's boyfriend) is a nurse manager there. So I believe that we will not have too many difficulties in interviewing.

--At the food court... Kriz, me, Krizzia, chelle and Bevs..

Mrs. Imelda Lloren, the Nurse Manager in Medical City ER. Since I was the leader (and the one who has a thick face!) I was the one talking with Mrs. Lloren and ask her questions. I was very nervous that time because I thought that she's too perfectionist, but I was wrong. In the middle of our interview, I feel like I knew her already.

--Interview with Mrs. Imelda Lloren..

Then, I learned a lot of things about The Medical City, I was so amazed because it doesn't look like a hospital, more of a hotel.

--That's me!! One on one interview with Mrs. Lloren..

Now, I'm doing the documentation of our group which is to be passed on August 5, 2006 (our 1st monthsary).. I had a lot of fun there at the Medical City and it was totally awesome to be bonded with kriz, chelle, bevs and krizzia. After the interview, we went to SM Megamall. It was totally fun because I got close to them and learned new things about a certain hospital with them.

Anxious.....

2006-08-01T04:36:00.000-07:00

I still have many things to do and here I am, doing nothing but a potato-couch... I don't like this feeling.. I really have to do something about my grades.. i actually don't have something to share about my life today but what I saw about myself today is I talk to much to myself as if I'm retarded whatsoever, a lot of things is bothering me most of the time and my studies is being affected. *sigh*